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About Me Member Shadow Deviant Katherine Arnay17/Female/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 2 Years
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Why do I always have to be insulted...?

Fri Nov 20, 2009, 2:28 PM
I bet people wouldn't even care about how I am feeling, but I'm just putting my sorrows in this journal. You see, many years, as long as I could remember, people have been insulting ever since I have ever lived. People have called me ugly, stupid, crazy, annoying, any insult you can name of.

I honestly can't take my life like this anymore! Even worse, I have been insulted from people in different schools, making me sound like a fool! I just HATE when people insult me because they just don't like me! Hell, I don't even KNOW those fuckers, and they just remember me because of what I do, how I look, and how I act, and how I am! I mean, what the hell did I do to them? It's their ignorance that pisses me off! Why does EVERYBODY have to put me down??

To be honest, that makes me want to end my life by committing suicide. Everything doesn't help me anymore, and I feel like if I can't live much longer due to insults from afar by very mean and ignorant people!

I don't even feel if I am loved anymore... I can't take it... I just feel so empty.

Good bye to you all.

  • Mood: Tearful
  • Listening to: Myself cry and the insults that haunt my mind...
  • Watching: My ugly future self
  • Eating: My broken heart
  • Drinking: My tears

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Hello, people who just came into my profile for no approximate reason! My name is Katherine! It's very nice to meet you. ^^

Anyway, I'm 17 years old, and I'll be 18 next year. Lol. I have my family who cares for me, my boyfriend, Andrew, who loves me, and friends who enjoy my company. However, I have a very low outlook on life, even though I have everything that makes me happy.

I see the world like a rebel. I see the world as a negativity of sorts. That makes me have a very low self-esteem inside myself. I have been called "ugly" and "stupid" ever since I went towards Middle School and High School. Even though I got out of that certain High School and went to a better High School in my Senior year, the thoughts of those insults still haunt me...

Now, let's drop into my relationship with Andrew. My love towards him is like no other. Out of all the relationships I have had (2), Andrew is who he makes me feel like myself around him. He is the kind of guy who is funny, smart, handsome, and just the right size for me. However, he had some flaws that made me care for him more... He has been through many surgeries, since he has a mild seizure problem. He can't smoke, drink certain beverages such as alcoholic beverages and dark-colored sodas, he can't eat that much either. Worst of all, he can't go outside in the extreme sun, exercise, or even drive unless he has a partner to keep him company. No, he's not autistic. AT ALL. Don't say that. He told me that he feels ashamed to take off his shirt because he has a HUGE stitch due to his dreadful surgery.

After what he told me, I felt so sorry for him, and I want to take care of him more and get married with him so he would be in endless joy to have my love and care. So far, our 2nd anniversary is getting close. It's on November 15, 2007 by the way. ^^ (Sighs)

So, that's all I can tell you for now. If I run up to something that I don't really know about myself, I'll let you guys know. Bye!

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  • Favourite band or musician: The Beatles, Panic at the Disco
  • Favourite genre of music: Rock, Classic, "Emo" aka Alternative Rock, Classic Rock.
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